Finding Real Satisfaction

by guest blogger Hugh Houston

I meant my marriage vows I made the day my wife and I were married. But somewhere along the way I fell into lust and porn.

I think most of us know what God said in the beginning:  “Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man. The man said, ‘This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called “woman,” for she was taken out of man.’ That is why a man leaves his father and mother and is united to his wife, and they become one flesh”  (Genesis 2:22-24).

 Marriage means one man and one woman together for as long as they both shall live.  The marriage vows we commonly hear say, “I take thee, to be my wedded husband/wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do us part, according to God’s holy ordinance.”

 I knew when I got married that I was pledging to be faithful to my wife.  To love only her. To never betray her. To be her one and only and have her as my one and only. 

But then lust and porn began to consume me. But unlike my relationship with my wife, those habits never met my needs.  Desires were never satisfied.  Lust always wanted more.  The person who is addicted to pornography can spend hours looking at image after image, because none of those images will ever be enough.  There is always a longing to see just one more. 

My wife could not understand how I could proclaim that my looking at porn was really not about her.  She was correct in that by looking at porn I was betraying her and going against our wedding vows.  But none of the women I saw were good enough.  It’s not that my wife is not attractive or desirable. It’s that lust is an animal that is always hungry and always wants just a little bit more.

I have written a book about my experience. In it I use the example of the person who is thirsty and in an effort to quench their thirst, they drink seawater. They can drink gallon after gallon and their thirst will only increase.  That’s how it is with porn and lust. Looking at porn does not satisfy our desires; rather it heightens and increases them.

Only true, genuine love in a committed marriage relationship can satisfy and bring real joy. I’ve discovered that now.  My wife and I have been married for over 40 years.  Her skin may not be as smooth as it was on our wedding day, but she is more beautiful than ever in my eyes.  I have traded the many for one. 

No pornographic image can ever be enough for the person who is seeking a high.  But one partner is plenty for the spouse who has learned what our Creator intended from the beginning. When Adam looked at Eve, he saw his dream come true.  She was a gift from the Father.  She was, as the Lord stated,  “A helper suitable for him.”

 I deeply regret the time I wasted seeking fulfillment and excitement in all the wrong places.  How mistaken I was!  Pornography could never fill the hole in my soul. Not in a million years! Only the Lord can meet my deepest longings. And He is the one who placed a human being in my life to be my very best friend and companion.  The one I love and cherish.  The one who, with His help, will remain by my side until death do us part.




My book, JESUS IS BETTER THAN PORN: How I Confessed my Addiction to My Wife and Found a New Life, is available at Amazon

Struggling with Pornography?

If you are struggling with pornography, you are not alone. Countless men . . . women . . . teens . . . and even children have been trapped in the snare. Perhaps you are a Christian and think you must be the only Christian involved in pornography, adultery, or other sexual sin. Wrong. See some of the surprising statistics here.

Do you want to break free? You can . . . with God’s help. First, admit you have a problem. Then talk to God about it.

If we claim we have no sin, we are only fooling ourselves and not living in the truth. But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness. If we claim we have not sinned, we are calling God a liar and showing that his word has no place in our hearts. (1 John 1:8-10)

I have just built a page on Find Christian Links that offers help to those who are struggling or know someone who is. You will find scriptures, websites, ministries, and even blogs. If you need help . . . or know someone who does . . . or are interested in starting a ministry for people who have fallen into this life-damaging trap . . . take some time to browse. Visit the websites. Follow the blogs. Meditate on the scriptures. And then pray about your next step.

One wonderful tool I found is Covenant Eyes. This company offers not only filtering but also an accountability plan. I encourage you to check them out to see how they can help you as an adult, your spouse, and help protect your children from the temptations. Here is a blurb from their website:


What if you could send a report of your Internet activity to a friend or mentor so you could talk about where you struggle online? What if they saw the sites you visit, the YouTube videos you watch, and the search terms you use? How would this change how you use the Internet? How would it help you lead by example?”

Please let me know if you are familiar with other ministries, Christian websites, or blogs that you’d like to see added to this page. Or if you have a testimony you’d like to share with our readers about how God helped you overcome, that would be wonderful. I’d be happy to keep it anonymous. Just send me an email at

Always remember . . . no matter what the problem or how big the challenge . . .

I have strength for all things in Christ Who empowers me [I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who infuses inner strength into me; I am self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency]. (Philippians 4:13 AMP)